Finding peace during this pandemic
Updated: Apr 19, 2020
Prior to this year, summer was my preferred season for obvious reasons: less school and more sun, however, Springtime has recently become my new favorite. Sitting on the porch, I'm writing this post as I observe the lambs jumping up and down, the birds serenading the welcoming atmosphere, and the plants blooming in the daylight. It was difficult to notice these elements of bliss in the past, even though they occurred every year, because of a busy schedule that occupied the majority of my time. Diving deeper into this concept, it seems as though Spring is a period of new beginnings. However, my stance might contradict how one views that message.
When I traveled back to Virginia, unwillingly, after hearing about the pandemic, anxiety flooded my thoughts. My career in Nashville was advancing in major steps: a new band was in the works, a broader network of music industry professionals were ascending, and classes were beyond any expectations. I had never felt more energized to chase my ambitions, but in my mind, that was all coming to an abrupt close when I arrived home.
In addition, I felt a heavy weight being planted on my shoulders as coming back required more expectations from me. This included anything from doing chores around the house that I had hoped I would never touch again, to acknowledging people that reached out when I expected that gate to be shut. I also missed everything about school in Tennessee- from close friends to total freedom. Frankly, I felt trapped and unmotivated for quite some time after returning.
Eventually, I came to the realization that, in order to keep pushing my life in a forward direction, I essentially had to push the negativity away because it wasn't good for my health, and the people around me weren't too thrilled with my attitude. The first step was to release what I was thankful for into a song. In my perspective, the song successfully describes an uplifting outlook on the current position the world is engrossed in. It was a tremendous guide on how to deal with the uncontrollable realities of life, and it wasn't until singing it aloud that I began to appreciate the opportunities and joy that currently surround me.
There are copious activities that I normally am unable to complete, but now there's plenty of time to enjoy active, creative, and spiritual opportunities such as spending time with family, songwriting, walking the dogs, reaching out to distant friends, posting on social media, starting projects, and so much more...
It may not be our ideal situation, but we are on God's time. He has it under control, and by knowing that, a weight should be lifted off of our shoulders. Apostle Paul quotes in 1 Corinthians 13, "No trial has come to you but what is human. God is faithful and will not let you be tried beyond your strength; but with the trial he will also provide a way out, so that you might be able to bear it." From my understanding, the "way out" is by accepting his outstretched hand and allowing him to lead the way!
The key is identifying that 'New Beginnings' doesn't necessarily signify changing our surroundings, instead, it could be interpreted as reevaluating our perspective.
Consequently, Spring doesn't solely represent a new story, but a fresh outlook of how we choose to handle certain, unruly circumstances. Everyday has great potential; it's our choice how we manage it. Will we continue to sit inside and look out the window, hoping the storm will pass? Or will we commit to embracing the rain, leaving our umbrella behind?